We've been married for 20 years. When we were younger, we were busy with housework and childcare, and we fought a lot, but now our children are grown, and we've somehow managed to get by together. Looking back, it was all a fun time... But what's sad is that my husband doesn't see me as a woman at all, and that hurts me more than anything. I can't stand the thought of just growing older like this, so I mustered up the courage to have my first affair.